This journey into Love School has not been easy! Creating and promoting the space I initially imagined hasn’t been straightforward. Now years into the journey of creating this space and all the content required for it I felt inspired today to go back to the beginning to reflect and explain why I created it and what its intentions are. 

I’ve always felt different. I have always tried to make sense of my experience of life, feeling it was so bizarre to even exist. My awareness was often split as a child. The version of me existing and the version of me hiding and trying to hold on to or make sense of my experiences. I didn’t know how to explain them to others, so I suppose I thought I would make sense of them later. 

As I grew up, this was my normal. I was trying to get through life, surviving the experiences I was having while also pushing myself, following my dreams and ambitions and having a deep desire to explore and thrive!

It turns out what I was experiencing was a trauma split (see blog post Who’s Living Your Life?), and a neurodivergent perspective. I didn’t know, understand or acknowledge the effects of early childhood sexual experiences, neglect, the stress and trauma of a broken home, family addiction, low-income home & an abrasive communication style. Until my thirties, after suicide attempts, burnouts and repeated less-than-ideal relationships.

I thought I was broken, defective and damaged, until I got to yet another crisis point in my life, and I knew I had to change! As a friend said to me, it was time to face my demons so I could be free of them. 

I am a deep diver… I always have been, I can't think of any better way to spend my time than exploring this world and trying to understand and make sense of it and unfold it as part of it. To me, life and living were also magical and complex and full of wonder. 

But my patterns and cycles were becoming overwhelming; all the years of holding on to things but not addressing them left me exhausted and very unwell at times. Mental illness, addictions, crises and traumas were constantly happening in my life, even when I had spent years trying to heal, connecting with my spirituality. I kept falling back into what felt like a horrid, hellish place. Tragic circumstances, endless stress, conflict and pain.

So when I admitted I was in deep trouble, and it was time to change, I flipped the switch. Instead of putting my attention to the external circumstances of my life, like I always did, it was time to look inwards. 

All my exploration meant I have had a life beyond what I assume many people have. I am 41 now (as I write this) and have spent most of my life navigating trauma after trauma, being confused in complicated relationships, and battling with my mind. I have been through a lot in my time: abuse, neglect, rape, bereavement, pregnancy loss, I’ve been stolen from, stalked, and bullied. I developed ill health at times with chronic conditions, and mental health problems, and had developed a life full of addiction to cope with and repress my deep emotions.

I have also always followed my creative drive. I became an ambitious photographer living in London who was aiming for the stars. I have been able to travel to wonderful places and meet some amazing people. But often these experiences were marred with underlying stress, and in the thick of addiction, I was often getting myself into dangerous situations and being surrounded by unsavoury types! 

As a natural intuitive, my relationship with spirituality has been important for most of my life. There was a period when I rejected God after rape trauma, and this led to a dark period of my life where I was led astray, and I experienced hell on Earth at times.  After I attempted suicide, I met God and my spirituality was awakened again. Since then, I have also experienced states one might describe as heaven, ultimate bliss and peace and sights so sublime I can’t even put them into words. Delved into consciousness, learned healing modalities and been guided through many states of awareness and knowledge.

Now I tend to navigate life through a lens of balance. Understanding that neither a high nor a low defines my experience. Being present, now having the skills to process my experience, the confidence after knowing everything I have survived, and all I now know, I will be okay. Learning how to be well, thrive in my own body and mind is a place I didn't know existed and one I was seeking but had no idea how to find.

I have had some life-changing, wonderful experiences as I have followed the path God decided for me. Life to me has been a struggle and complicated, confusing, while also being an adventure. 

I moved back up to the north in 2011 when I realised I had to heal. That was 12 years ago, and my journey since then has led me through many places and stages of personal growth. I began with support through the spiritualist church, learning to understand my psychic and spiritual gifts. I refocused my career toward the world of Permaculture design and environmentally conscious living styles. I was diving into real-world solutions for all the conspiracy and lies of the modern matrix, I had become aware of. 

All of this while healing through my own depression, anxiety and trauma symptoms, realising I was neurodivergent. I had physical challenges due to all this and my natural hyper-sensitive and hypermobile nature, and developed chronic health issues that flared up and caused intense periods of pain. I was also having to fight (unsuccessfully) to try to get any help from the so-called support systems. 

Over time, I have worked through all the contributing factors of my distress using a life design process I developed. I reported my rapes and abuse, and I have done deep shadow work guided by my spiritual team for many years. Through it all, the process of reconnecting with nature, which was my solace as I grew up, has helped me to recover myself, who I really am, and understand how I am meant to exist in the world, unmasking and freeing myself from the social and abusive conditioning. 

Love School is the result of years of experiments, research and all this wisdom dying to come out of me and be shared. The entire space has been guided by my connection with God, nature & all parts of myself. Bringing together the things I have learned to be a space for others who are seeking deep answers to the challenges of their life. 

The space is intentionally nature-focused and holistic. It is a space for healing that's not all live and light and soft touch surface level feel good symptom management. Instead, it offers support for recovery grounded in the reality of making real change. We offer insights and understanding, suggestions of where to look, research prompts, and ideas to cultivate your own healing path. At times weshare tools and aid you as you develop helpful life skills. All with a focus on what actually helped me to heal, recover, grow and evolve.

As a systems thinker and a designer, I have understood what helps and why. Seen how all the aspects support a holistic approach with an ecosystem mindset. I have been given information from source energy to understand and convey this process and method of long-term transformation. I see things differently from what is considered common knowledge, scientifically proven or what has been accepted as "the way to heal".

The guidance that is both very basic, grounded in common sense and practical in many ways, but also forgotten and considered an alternative to a medical approach to healing. I know a fair bit about a lot myself, so I share what I know, and we invite experts into the space at times, signpost or share ideas of where to find further information, as well as sharing our own original content. The inspiration is drawn from many places and influences throughout my journey, brought together as helpful nuggets of wisdom and pieces of the puzzle, things that you too can do, use or try as you forge your own path through recovery to ward your own version of wellness.

Love School is dedicated to all the things I wanted to exist together when I was looking for support. It has taken me years to create the courses, design and develop the space, and make content to promote it.  

It is a space for people to take responsibility for themselves and their healing, and find empowerment, freedom, peace, courage, and face the depths of their soul… while also nurturing their body to wellness without giving their power away to others. 

Although my life is very different now, I still navigate my recovery journey honouring my needs and my naturally sensitive nature. Like everyone, I am managing the ongoing challenges of life and struggle at times to live in the current dynamics of society while working towards creating a whole new way of being connected that supports our thriving. 

As host of the space, I show up as my imperfect self, navigating the balance of my life as best I can, providing a space for you to do the same. I aim to be an example of what is possible for healing, recovery and spiritual exploration that we can all choose if we want to. 

Love School is focused on finding the balance of all this. Learning to love self, others and life. It is based upon a foundation of authenticity, honesty and connection. Considering body, mind, spirit, environment and relationships as part of creating a whole life. 

The logo you may notice is a yin-yang symbol with images of fire and water. This represents my core understanding of creation, alchemy and the creative process of masculine, feminine and child energy. It represents the urge to connect with the spark of divine light in all of us and the call to deep dive into the darkness we all experience. 

Everything here is grounded in a connection with nature, our true nature and love at the heart of our experience of life. We face the reality of life, sex (connection & creation) and death! The foundations of all existence. 

The space holds an awareness of both the requirement of nature and tenderness and protection, but balances it with the need for personal empowerment and self-accountability. 

Most of the people drawn here will have been victimised in our lives, maybe even in horrific ways, but we choose to heal! We are not stuck in the mind, trapped in the space of victimhood, although we do not avoid the reality of the consequences these experiences can and do and have had upon us. 

Recovery is finding our empowerment again and choosing to allow them to evolve us and grow through our pain towards a faith that we can experience peace and wellness, no matter what we have experienced. 

The space hosts courses that people can do themselves in a self-directed experience at home at their own time and pace. They deep dive into specific areas of healing and recovery, but they are all interconnected. 

Love School will also host an online community and offer live events where we can all connect, creating an aligned tribe of people who have all decided to do the same uncovering. 

All the support and content here is based on my awareness of an ecosystem mindset, that we are all ecosystems like the nature we are part of. Without considering the whole and the connected nature of different areas of our lives, we can not fully heal and find peace and wellness. 

The core processes here combine:

• Life design is a process of consciously creating our experience and directing ourselves towards a life that we choose and prefer. 

• Shadow work is where we use all of our experiences and dive into the unknown to accept the difficult experiences of our lives and learn from them, turning them into something to benefit us… the core of why we need to heal and the karma we have been given to work together. 

• A knowing we are part of nature, part of an ecosystem and our life as an ecosystem within ourselves. We are also part of the great divine unfolding of life, and we are subject to many forces that we can not contain, control or fully understand, but are intuitively guided to explore as part of our destined path. 

As a mentor, I share my own experiences, tools or helpful insights and allow you to uncover your journey, offering support for your changing circumstances as you heal. Often, my role is to be present as you are making sense of your journey or highlighting things I see that maybe you can't. I offer this in group sessions, through the community feds or discussion spaces aksign questions or sharing insights.

Love School Key Messages, that come from my experience and deep understanding of healing and recovery, are:

• You can trust yourself to heal. We all can. We are all connected to a divine intelligence, and when we tap into that, we will be guided through recovery and to face what we need to about ourselves so we can heal, gorw and find wellness.

• Our life is supposed to be unique; it is a lived, felt experience. Our presence with it and acceptance and facing what is present, is how we navigate through it and ease most of our struggle and suffering (long-term). When we learn to allow ourselves to grow, flow with life and stay connected to the nature of what and who we are (intelligently designed to be), life is better.

• Wellness is found in simplicity. When we let go of what hurts us, release attachments, habits that harm and embrace what nurtures us, meeting our needs, we will have a better life and more peace.

• You are already whole. Humans can't be broken, only hurt, confused, victimised and conditioned. The mainstream narratives are invested in a separation, tactics that often keep us in power struggles, controlling mindsets, and the system wants us to be vulnerable and reliant upon the system. We don't need to externalise our experience or give power to others to heal. We are naturally restorative when given the correct conditions, which include our social conditioning and unhelpful education.

I also offer limited one-to-one spaces for personal mentorship and, ultimately, will include retreats where people can spend dedicated time in a safe space to recover and experience how I live my life post-recovery. This is part of and connected with the Love School offerin but I do also take on clients who are not part of the Love School community.

The path of recovery isn’t always easy…but who said life was supposed to be easy anyway? It is, however, fulfilling and for me purposeful and meaningful to dedicate my life this way as a creative, intuitive and spiritually motivated person. 

The Love School space, like us, is always evolving, open to feedback and will develop based on what feels best for the long-term vision of the space, its values and ethics and the divine guidance regarding it, the current members' needs and my needs as the host.

You are welcome here!

Join Love School!

We would love to have you join us on a journey of recovery & self-discovery!

The most cost-effective way to be part of Love School is to join as a Community Member or invest in our Curriculum Bundle.

Both of these pacakges incude the entire curriculum and access to private spaces, me as a host and mentor in different ways.

Our Membership Community has a private community space, regular online support sessions and also offers special member live events. This is the most hands-on, connected avenue for you that we offer. As we get to know you and you benefit from full access to the space, including evolving content in the community.

Our Curriculum Bundle gives you access to navigate yourself. Support is offered through the comments or discussion spaces, and you also receive invitations to exclusive events for the wider Love School community outside of the membership events.