Becoming Ourselves!

When we are born we are in a receptive mode. Our young minds are designed to be like sponges. We take in all the information we see, hear, taste, smell and feel...without question. 

We are born in this mode of learning with limited consciousness so we can take in as much information about our environment as possible. It is an evolutionary part of our development that helps us to survive. Human babies are born in a particularly helpless form and it serves us well to grow quickly. 

As we grow and we adopt a language a role play begins. By calling our parents "Mam" (I'm northern) or "Dad" we attached a narrative and a thread of information (a pattern and association) that all got categorised in our minds. We decide as we grow that this is what being a mother means and this is what being a father means. 

Our experience with those roles constantly updates this association. Especially as young children up to around the age of seven. After that, we are more able to comprehend what it means to be a mother or father through our experiences with others and the education we receive. 

That understanding serves us fine as children. It's how we learn to behave and please our parents or caregivers. It is how we understand what the role of parenting is and what we should expect from our parents as we grow. 

When we become adults and leave our family we hopefully have learned how to take care of ourselves. We become more and more responsible for ourselves, essentially we are parenting ourselves based on the information we have gathered. We do it automatically without thinking, whether what we have learned is helpful and supportive to us or not. We might begin making new choices about our lives, trying new things or living in different ways to our parents and not see much of this conditioning consciously. 

That is until we become parents ourselves or we have to adopt a parenting role or some sort of life crisis forces us to consider how we are living our lives. 

It is perhaps the easiest to understand when I describe the associations that come into play when someone becomes a parent. Because when they become a parent they have learned they are then expected to be, do and respond in a certain way. The manifestation of this trend can be similar due to other causes but this is the most obvious way we can suddenly find that we have indeed become our parents. 

What happens is as soon as we say to ourselves "I am now a Mam/Dad" or we prepare that we are a mother or father in our mind it starts playing the programmed role we have associated with that name as a child. Regardless of what we have learned as adults because we are in a new situation, one we have never experienced before, like being a baby our subconscious mind kicks into auto-pilot and we begin playing the role we observed as children within the associations we made back then. 

We have evolved to do that because it's more energy-efficient to recall the pieces of information we so easily absorbed while we were young, vulnerable & open. When we then become parents and have a duty to fulfil the role of caring for another vulnerable being it is stressful. We don't want to be wasting valuable cognitive processing energy to make decisions about what to do and how when we are busy, needed and tired. Playing the role with ease is a requirement of evolution that has helped us to survive. 

So why would that be a problem?

It can be a problem because despite all the additional learning we made through our education and our own experiences we resort to this original programming if we aren't conscious (aware) of it. It can be a problem because no parents are perfect. It can be a problem because times change and our parents may have lived or acted in ways we as adults do not want to as we either parent ourselves or our children. 

If you had a pretty good set of parents, that did a pretty good job, then it's not going likely going to be a huge problem. You're probably pretty stable, you survived and became healthy enough to have a child or live as long as you have so you'll likely raise a child that will also survive. 

However, if you had abusive or neglectful parents or if the world and environment evolved so rapidly half of what you learned is irrelevant or unacceptable. If you reach a crisis point due to your auto-pilot, become ill or realise you need to change you can harm or hurt yourself and others. This unconscious auto-pilot can cause us to be aggressive, develop anxiety, depression or addictions as we live within the unhealthy patterns we learned or we repress our true selves under the false guise of pleasing our parents.

Often it is not until we realise we are perpetuating parental patterns that, when it gets so bad we see ourselves making the same mistakes or worse causing the same harm to our kids. 

This is what people often call "family karma" or "Generational Trauma" and it can pass on for a long time. Repeating cycles, patterns or habits can be commonplace until we hit a pivotal moment of realisation. 

Rather than treat the symptoms, assume we are broken, align with ideas we are mentally ill or have some sort of physical limitation this is when reparenting and inner child work is required. It is work we can do to reprogramme our subconscious mind and consciously reparent ourselves or split aspects of ourselves from childhood wounding. It takes time and effort, it's not easy and it can get emotionally messy. This is why so many people avoid it and our minds, always seeking easy solutions will most often choose to bypass this phase of adult growth. 

But after doing this work the results make a huge difference. It is possible to change these auto-pilot patterns when you are willing to do the work. Inner child work and reparenting can take anything from three months to several years depending on the amount of reprogramming required and trauma experiences you have had. But through doing it you can find yourself free from the control of childhood wounds, soothe depression, evolve past anxiety, overcome addictions or heal chronic stress symptoms. 

At Love School, we have a course dedicated to exploring this dynamic. Our Inner Child & Reparenting course is designed to guide you through this process and provide you with the skills and tools you need to do this work yourself. You are welcome to join us there if you think or get a feeling you could benefit from this work. 

Simply follow the link to the product or send me a message to chat further about how it could help you.